2:51 pm / May 14, 2003
Before I went to bed I had just been watching the Daily Show with Jon Stewart and Josh Jackson had been on talking about the last episode of Dawson's Creek and I suppose that is what inspired this dream.
In the dream I had been very seriously dating Pacey. (Not Josh, Pacey) Sometimes I was Joey and sometimes I was just me. At one point I even saw myself and I was me. The dream seemed to go on forever and I don't remember much of the first part except for the feelings that I had. It was this powerful meant-to-be kind of feeling that I've never felt before. It wasn't an obsessive or needy it was just peaceful and fufilling.
The parts I do remember came after we had broken up.
In one scene I was at my house and Dawson, Gretchen and Pacey all had to sleep over for some reason I can't recall. I was sitting somewhere trying to avoid going to sleep because I didn't want to make Pacey feel like he had to sleep in the same bed as me knowing that there was only my bed left. Then all of a sudden there was a fire and I ran to wake Dawson's mom up who was sleeping on the couch. I then ran to wake up Dawson and Gretchen who were sleeping in each others arms on the spare bed and then I went to wake Pacey and he was already asleep in my bed on one side saving the other side for me to sleep.
After everybody was awake and the fire was put out everybody was sitting around and Pacey and I were sitting alone a ways off talking and then he kissed me and for a while we just passionately kissed and I remember how amazing the feeling was.
Afterwards he told me that he had just kissed me because he had been so scared about the fire and the thought that he could've lost me.
The other part I remember was much later after we had broken up. I remember before it had been somewhat bitter and awkward but at this later point we were very comfortable friends just hanging out.
Pacey and I and my mother were all at some kind of sporting event, not sure which. We were all sitting on the bleachers and it was so friendly. I remember though at one point one of my acquaintances came over and talked to Pacey and I but she had forgotten that we had broken up and talked like we were still a couple and I remember how it brought back memories of us together.
I vividly remember that even after we broke up in the dream there was always this knowledge that we would end up together. Part of it was the feeling I got when we were together in the dream--that meant-to-be feeling and another part was my subconcious who knew that the end of the dream was a happy one. Too bad I had to go and wake up.